TIRED 4 everythings,except HIM♥

29th aug 2oo9
poppy nite wif soon gang N deearest berry((=.
went to jia hse for prepare everything 1st~

take at poppy's toilet.wif dearest berry^.^v

after tat 30th aug 2oo9
went to genting 4 celebrate national day.
n enjoy the fireworks((=

4pm going up.no jam pulak.
but hard to find parkings.
b4 wait the fireworks started we having tea time at starbucks.
enjoy my lovely [JAVA CHIPS]
yummy~((=

this time dint zi lian lerr.
coz HiM went genting wif me.ms.tirris n her mr.T join us too.
enjoy the nice fireworks at 12am.
damn nice.love the feeling to enjoy tat.
me n HIM enjoy the same fireworks at genting .but..bside HIM nt ME.is HER..
HE reli sweet wif HER,me..juz owez argue wif HiM..
31th aug..11am thn going bak KL.

zilian sum pic at my hse.lolz.

mr.J although Lucas told alot things about u wif me.

but i still waitting the impossible.

coz i reli...LOVE u.

sorry.

♥happy merdeka((=

lolz.recently cnt online lurr.
later go babes hse,nite going clubbing wif berry.
dint go bak hum lurr(=
sunday straight go genting wif ms.Tirris 4 celebrate national day((=
lalala~
damn syok yar.
keep playing(((=
juz like tat oni can make myself get more FUN mar.XDXD
HIM-mr.J
him-mr.K
HiM-mr.N
i try to 4gt the feeling without u.
try to 4gt hw suffer i hearing the NEWS about YOU.
hey dudes,we gonna 4gt every bad,sad stuff here.
afterr merdeka.we gonna start a new life.okay?

Happy merdeka((=

114 days i still missing HIM.

i try to let myself 4gt HIM

i stoped write my diary.

the book still hide at underbed.

him.i reli dissapointed wif him.

change everything bcoz of her.

SHIT!!

HiM.plz try 2 do everything to hurt me.

PLZ...

坎坷的爱♥

为什么别人做得到.

我却做不到?

我放不下他我不敢告诉我身边的他.

我试着努力的走出和他的回忆.

我也做不到.

而他..却幸福快乐的拥着别人.

有时,还会听到.他为了他的她失落喝酒.

有时,还听到..他和他的她怎么开心,怎么吵架..

今天第112天了.

我怎么了,身边的他不是已经作得很好了吗?

不是已经是自己正牌的男友了吗?

为什么觉得不够?

为什么我还不想公开和他之间的关系?

我和他一开始都已经是错了吗?

我和他一起超过了一个星期.

超出了我预的期限了.

不代表我爱他而选择继续.

是我根本找不到理由分手.

我知道对他不公平.

但我从来不过问他生活的事.

就连他和别的女生有联络.我都可以视而不见.

只希望他可以出轨.做对不起我的事.

那就不再是我伤害他了.

我太傻啦..

爱一个人多烦多愚蠢,我把一切给错了人.

等一个人多难多天真,未来从来都没个准.

我等的人和我爱的人.

的确是错的人.

我是否该像yang说得.

回忆过去。不要回到过去

但每当我想起他.我就有冲动想信息他.

告诉他我想他.我想挽回.

其实,女生这样放下自尊去哀求一个人的时候,

是低贱吗?是没矜持吗?

爱不是没有如果吗?

爱要及时吗?..

那..要是我们都在对的时间遇上错的人呢?

爱该怎么及时?

我的爱.

什么时候来的及时?

我什么时候才会在对的时间遇上对的人?

你?还会回来吗?

我的等待..会是空白吗?

你会是偷走我故事里那一页的人吗?

还是..你只会是个过客?

toufu back((=♥

tou fu feel better nw lurr.((=
N nw wanna be strong tou fu larr.XDXD
but nw still wan take pil.))=
who help me finish all medicine yar??
owez take 5min juz finish my 6type medicine.
lolz.i oso dunoe y arr..=.=
OMG..
ntg update nerr>,<
haha.

thx him send sumting i need 4 me(((=

tat him n HIM.

haha.

-u dare to accept my love??

i dare to love you more n more.

although tat is nt response 4 me.

am i silly?

haha.i think so.((=

BEI.u the most silly.

HIM n him wont belongs to u owez,n owez..

sick day♥

i reli sick jor arr..
ytd din go 4 movie))=
sorry teng..
ytd mornig juz go c doctor.
wan eat 6type of medicine.
flu,asthma,cough,fever,antibiotic,other 1 is 4 sore throat 1.
)))=.i hate medicine.T.T
n ytd lucas call me ask me hw sick m i.
thn say wanna buy food 4 me,i say here gt bread.
he say nt enuf heathy 1.thn he buy sum food 4 me.

thx lucas..((=but,sum food i cant eat.
i fever,cant eat rice,cough cnt drink orange juice.
haha..btw..thx alot.

c,hw sick i m in ytd..cnt online.dint play computer 4 whole day.like wanna die jor.
2day felt better,finally i can online ad.

but..tat asthma medicine ate jor gt sum side effects.
it make my hand keep trembling.
n my head damn pain.)))=

thx all frd who care me.

i will be fine soon((=

ok lar..stop here..head reli pain n hand keep trembling..

hard to taip much..

i will take care myself.((=

hope i can get well soon.

MEDICINE i hate u..

sick until blur ad.

n reli hope tat impossible things will be change to possible.

n..hope tat him..will break soon wif HER.

all things change,when i recover..

i pray it..

i too selffish in love.

i love HIM.but i like him too.

ABCDEFGHILMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ.

I MISSING 2 PERSON N0W.

sick BEI♥

ytd hang out wif teng n ant((=

we went 4 movie.[UP]

damn nice.the boy damn cute ner>,<

felt wana cubit his face.

haha.CUTE!CUTE!CUTE!

but funny too^^

after movie we went to jalan ipoh oldtown

having our 'd

ya hor..i sick ad lerr.

inner'--should be supper ad.lolz.

thn keng gai a while 12sumting juz send our cinderella teng bak hum.

haha.cough n flu ad..my asthma cum bak to me again.

n the spray was lost at barce nite.ishh..

damn suffer nw.waitting daddy cum bak fetch me to clinic.

))=

if reli sick till 99,2mr no need hang out 4 movie wif teng again.

aikz.we planning 2mr watch On His Majesty's Secret Service(2009) geh lerr.

wanna watch long time ad.but owez full n no match our time.

nw book ticket ad lerr.if sick till 99 jau cham lurr..==

HELP ME..H1N1 [you] dun cum n find me arr..

i miss HIM.

DAMN MISS.

when i juz will dare to tell u the truth?

would u miss me too?))=

♥siao me♥

ytd hang out 4 clubbing wif dyue frd.

barce nite.i set up my hair.a mature look.haha

nice?

b4 went to barce,we having meeting at kepong oldtown.

after that,wait jia geh frd cum n join us thn juz went to thr.

11 sumthing arrived thr,thn ladies nite.

all guys of our gang damn gentleman wat.haha

they spend all money at all.

thn juz in thr,we all started siao~

sum of them.7 sin wat.

those who need drive car wana gt drunk,but i ad stop them do tat kind of things.

coz i alone drink all the wine at the table.

thn 1sumting v all girls ad drunk man~~=.=

thn all going out thr take rest.

sumppl 发酒疯.

me owez awake 1.lalala..

siao me...~~~

jia awake too.

she lik nanny to takecare all of us.

thn she call my boy cum n fetch me.

i lay on the floor.n taking pic.and siao bite myself.

siao eh me.haha.

y i need bcoz u doing the all stupid thing n hurt my self?..

kisiao me...hello man..i dunwan lik tat.

god help me lerr.

i dunwan gt this feeling.

who HELP me...

MOODY♥

to:STUPID u!

wat happen 2 u ooo?u tot u very leng zai meh?

#$%%^&*

u hurt my babes 2nd times ad lurr.

the 1st time u going n.s cheat her and be with other gal.

nw..she give u the last time hope can restore the feelings between you n her.

MK u..u nw u hurting her again.

reli dulan..==

hurt ppl lik a S.H.!!!

u nt worth the chance my babes giving u!!

SHIT!!

babes,dun sad bcoz of him,okay.nt worth.

he nt desrve the chance u giving him.

n..i din angry u din told me everything.

i'm ur babes lerr.sure owez bside u wan.((=

smile plz.

i owez the 1 who hope u reli happy 1.

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omg!impossible i will sad bcoz of u,k..

but..at the last..

i sad-ing again.

hey!!man..wtf* oo..u nt the 1 who i care!!

ishhh...

i reli hope tat juz i think too much.

dunoe y when he answer me the question i askin him.

i reli hope he say nope.

but...is the truth.he reli 2gether wif her.

wtf*...

i keep told myself.i dun care.i dun care.

tat's none of my buisness.

fuck!!!

i keep lie myself.lik a S.H.

=.=

2day i reli moody 4 everything.

n the god keep raining,have been like in the rain with my heart.

ishhh!!

juz nw go out wif my dear.

i should act myself like nthing at all.

damn suffer.stupid bei..

i care mr.J more.

dun wanna care u much.!!!

MK!!

is okay.is okay.

2mr i sure siao enuf at barce.

i wana 4gt the stupid feeling!

n dunwan damn care u!

@$%*%$#@

SORRY,DUDEs.

2day reli moody.

sorry 4 damn rude 2day.

4give i use the F word here.

y u make me hate u??♥

Mr.J...我投降了..我放弃不到你阿.

我可以问你..我还有等待你回来得机会吗?

我在你心里还有位置吗?

她有什么魅力让你这样着迷?

[我想知道她让你痴心是什么?]

[是我傻,我还在挣扎.]
[如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样?我们是不是还隐瞒着对方?]

tat is wat u write on ur msn display name.

when the 1st time i saw it.i tot,i think,i hope tat is write 4 me.

but since tat day a frd told me urs things.

i knew tat nt 4 me.all ur things juz belong 2 her.

--------------------------------------------------------------

juz nw emmy chat wif me at FB.

she like wat i posting.
thn she ask me.tat question write 4 who.
mr.j.
i juz luf.
thn she ask me y dunwan sms u.
actually..i no dare.
ytd i taip the msg..wana send 4 u.
but..no dare.juz save it on draft.
y i wanna scare??
mr.j..i hate u.u make me siao!!!
ROGUE!

APPLE♥

苹果,我爱上你了.

每天不能没有你.哈哈(=

最近每天都吃上2颗苹果耶~

如果我可以忍到口不吃零食肯定会瘦.

哈哈.但是本人就是忍不了啊~>,<

看..我肥到~~~OMG.>,<
Mr.J..

昨晚之前.我还没有那个心要放弃你的.

但过了昨晚以后.

我知道你不能没有她.

你的msn的p.m..是写给她的.

你的一切都离不开她.我唯一不明不了的事.

她让你和朋友之间起了争执,那么不会体谅.

为什么你那么爱她?可以为了她放弃E.我真的很不明白.加上她不是什么美女阿.

不过,你开心就好啦.我无言.

今天这第101天,是要我重新开始的一天吗?我想放弃等待了.

从昨天结束以后.我想了好多.你不值得我等待了.

我不知道自己能不能够做到.放弃真的好难.

我会努力.

hope i can do it well.i will let you u.

i'm loser...

scared♥

. this site is drag me to hell geh ah por..>

ma geh~damn horrible..

teng ytd study the 老人妆.

after i saw her picha,i keep say her look lik tat ah porr.

haha.she gek sei jor.lolz.

n hor 1st time c her picha let her look scared dou oso.fuiyoh..

aiyerr..eh,teng,u noe mou?u leng than HER geh.dun scare.

wakaka.

but nw hor i imagine-ing tat when u old jor,will like tat mou.

haha.fong sam.i sure owez bside u until u old to look lik this.

wakaka~XDXD

*dun angry yarr~play har jek~((=

ya lurr.2day is the 100th days he leave me jor.

n hor at 2day my fs geh who view me gt 520 ppl view it lerr.haha.

520.i LOVE u.

ya,juz 4 u.mr.J..haha((=

i ki siao again.XDXD

hapi day♥

ang gu gui,妈咪做的蛋糕

妈咪做的粽子和[燕菜糕].

红鸡蛋和水果.

烧鸡和烧鸭,妈咪做的九层糕.

今天是关帝诞妈咪有拜神,所以做了那么多东西.

我呢,2点才起床..一起床就吃啦.哈哈.

过后,打给婷婷.叫她陪我去midvalley interview指甲店的工.

她上完课后,爹地载我去kepong找她,过后再载我们去kepong centrel搭火车.

yerr..一上火车真的很恐怖,后悔没有听chris的话,戴口罩.=.=

那些人挤人,感觉空气很不干净.=.=[抱歉,我第一次搭KTM.]

huu~~忍了6个站才到那里.

过后就去找那间店.堂姐也在那里做工的.

但是她放工了.我又不知道她的英文名.

我和她朋友说她的华语名她的朋友又不知道.=.=

她朋友问我是不是elaine,我说不知道,只知道她的名字有个玲,应该是吧.

结果她说elaine没做了.=.=

我就打给佳佳问她,堂姐的英文名咯,她也不懂.

过后堂姐才打给我,和我说她叫angel=.=

炸到...

跟住就去回店里找她的朋友,填form.

过后那个女生和我说,过几天再call我哦.

然后陪婷婷去M.A.C.买化妆品.

过后,我就说快快回家吃饭咯.因为妈妈有煮嘛.

差不多到KTM那里是,我break住,因为我想到..

等下又要上火车..又是人挤人的.

就叫她陪我去买口罩.

找了很多间店都看不到.

过后经过living cabin,进去看看.

哈哈.给我找到啦..

买了两个,一个牛牛的,一个还没拆.

过后还看到个很可爱的.又很畏下的.哈哈

但是没有拍到.哈哈.

婷又和我回家啦.我和妈咪说我带人回来帮忙做bandar raya啊.

还有阿,因为两个姐姐都拍拖了嘛.

她们还带男朋友回家吃饭了.

那爹地就很怪兰的kacau我和妈咪说咯,

[你两个女婿都回来吃饭啦,几时到你的小女婿阿?]

我和爹地说你的小女儿长不大没有人要,他在那边笑说我大到可以嫁人了咯.有翅膀了咯,还长不大?.

然后刚才我就kacau妈咪说婷就是我的男朋友咯.

她吓到那样问我,你les阿?=.=

我和婷就笑咯,妈咪还问她有男朋友了没有哦.

叫她不要酱快拍拖阿.

我就静静的偷笑..哈哈

呵呵..想想我家人真的挺可爱.也很搞笑的咯.

我还真幸福咯.有这样的家人.

我很多朋友都这样说过的.她们都说我家很温馨.

呵呵呵.的确阿~突然想说daddy,mommy..i LOVE u((=

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还有,我很无聊吧((=

这苹果挺美的咧.给我咬了.可怜.wakaka..XDXD

apple,apple..i LOVE u.LOVE to eat u~haha..

对咯..今天已经第100天了.

我还没有那个心想放弃他.

虽然我们今天没有任何的交际.但我不知道为什么.

想起昨天和你msn chat都已经很开心了.

呵呵.MR.J..谢谢你.((=

i miss u((=

speechless♥=X

明天是关帝诞,妈咪要拜神.

啦啦啦.就是说..明天又有好料才吃咯~

哈哈..刚刚在帮妈咪折金纸(=

我偶尔也挺乖呐..XDXD

哈哈.无聊.没东西写.

明天在update一些好料吧((=

wait my post oo((=

thx u chat wif me 2day.
i happi euf.
mr.j..thx u alot.

sorpor♥

wakaka.

we 2 reli mou liu lerr?

ahaha.sor por buy jor laptop cn owez online chat wif me jor.

yeah yeah~~

c this picha damn cute nerr((=
dun whack me~lalalala..

norr..sor por 1 n sor por 3 here.haha

whr is sor por 2??

she..damn moody i think.

lolz.4 sor por 2,dun think so muchie..everything will be okay.

we 2 owez support u((=

makzz.

bored day♥

today at fb thr siao wif teng.

we 2 keep saying self no ppl wan.
tat sui por ar.i wanna ask u keep skin.

damn leng nw still wan say no ppl wan.isshhh!!.

summore say she pity.i think i more pity than u ar.

mr.w tat day say wan chase u.

hmm..although i noe u wont let him kao geh.

but still gt abit bit boh song lorrr.

XDXD

sui teng u make me feel wanna fall in love lorr?

sudd ask me when u sin can paktuo.

haiz..actually 4 me lerr,single is better geh lorr.

sudd u ask me this question.

make me gt some feel wanna fall in love again.ishh...

but THINK enough larrr.haha.

coz no ppl me wan geh.XDXD.

damn sienz this few day.coz keep thinking of u.

keep doing the same things.=.=

the first 98 days without HIM.

more 2 days is 100th day anniversary of wothout HIM.

haha.siao ar ME.lik tat oso cn memorial.=.=

yad-kiy

crazy- ♥

Mr...我疯了.从遇见你那天起我的生活全都改变了.

在直到分开为止..我都没有改善过.依然会想你.日夜颠倒.

你..就不曾为我做过什么.

the question all ppl asking me.→bei,he reli worth u to do it for him??

my answer→ya.4 me he reli reli worth.although he hurt me badly.

the first 97 days without HiM.

破纪录

lolz..

不错.

我从昨天到现在33个小时没有睡觉了..

竟然为了他失眠.

今早7am就去workshop了.

到晚上7pm.才回家.

我现在很累.

眼睛睁不开了..

晚安.

๑bad luck๑

6点多君打给我约我去吃steamboat,okay阿~

反正我们三个都很就没有出去了.我冲好凉以后就打给婷..

猪这样,竟然在睡觉..

还好君还没到我家..换好衣,搞掂完全部东西,在打给那猪,

打了很多次,终于醒了,和她说我们等下去载她.

她也on了.

君很开心的,因为之前车中saman几个星期都没有驾车出了.

今天是第一天驾回车.

7点多的时候他到我家.上了车,我们先回去她家拿回我借她的衣服.

然后就去婷的家载她.

君在车上告诉我,他最近都很bad luck.

在学校钱包不见,做assigment,东西save在电脑,

结果电脑中virus hang机.OMG..

我还和她说破财挡灾.

到了我们的老地方..[下车前还听到(一个像夏天一个像秋天)我们还听到不舍得下车.XD]

今天超多人的..

坐下以后我们开餐拉.

一边吃一边讲话.

废的,正经的什么都说.

三个都为爱情而烦..

婷-mr.t,ms.y

贝-mr.j

君-mr.j,mr.h

看..我只为了一个人而烦.她们两个还真好.

几多人追..=.=

11点多我们才吃完东西.饱到我们.

很'鱼'.君小姐和我竟然饱到要吐..

君小姐吐拉..我没有.哈哈..(((=

回家的路上我们还唱歌讲废话.

到一半.我打给朋友.君的妈还打给她.关了电话以后.

不知道发生什么事,"砰"的一声.

OMG...君撞车了.

第一时间我想到的是君有没有事.

她吓到手震脚震..我抓住她的手.只想她没事.

她说她踏不到break.所以撞到的.

过后撞到的是一个印度女人,她下车就顶胸很串那样.

妈的...很想打她噢~~

过后很快的有个call man就停下来,给我卡片..但是我第一个想的是我的哎呀姐夫.

怎么知道...妈的.他和姐姐在sanctualy..

没有办法之下.打给另一个朋友.

他过来后就帮我们settle.

过后.朋友就在我们回..

aikz..bad luck 到....

2day gt sumting happening 2 me.

about HIM.

sad.make me struggling.

I мiss HIM♥

wat going on?

sorry.i getting siao.self-mutilation agaiin..

juz feel SUFFERING.

ytd nite think much agaiin..

7th Ogos 2009..

today is the first 92 days of without HIM.

but i still thinking of HIM.i still missing HIM.

N still waiting HIM.

although I noe that HE has wont come bak to me.

Mr.J♥..hw can i let all the things gone?

败犬女王♥

追剧中..

败犬女王

不错咧..

但怎么我那么容易感动流泪阿..=.=

看了几集,哭了几集..

OMG..

可以让我走出回忆吗?♥

原来..我们的一切不能重来.

曾经很多次有过冲动想向你挽回.但到拿起电话那一刻.我阻止了自己.

我也不知道为什么?

只有你能给我幸福的感觉.

很可惜..我们不能走到最后..

刚才.我无聊没事做.看了我们以前的信,照片..

原来.在我心里并不曾把你忘记.

原来我没有办法放下你的一切.

挂在颈上的戒指,我舍不得拿下.

在床上的公仔.再多,再烂我都舍不得收起来.

我干嘛?干嘛要舍不得..

其实是我自己要这样的阿.

你,他..

两个在我心里狠狠的霸占了一定的位子.

但他比你来的更狠.

因为他不止霸占了,他还在我心里划上更多的伤.

而且..他只不过是认识不久的过客.

大家都认为..你在我心里居住是很必然的事.毕竟我们的过去..

都是轰轰烈烈的.而且2年的关系不是说放下就放下的.

但他呢?

他算什么?

只不过是伤害我的人.为什么我还对他念念不忘?

为什么你和他的位子.好像他比你来得更高.

我走不出回忆.

我没有办法接收别人.

我可不可以勇敢?

BE DEAD AND TO RISE FROM THE DEAD.

我在戏中听到这句话.

为什么别人可以从回忆走出?

我就不能..

我是怎么了?

每当我想爱别人在我脑海里总会提醒我你和他的存在?

cn i 4gt everything about YOU n HIM.

怕！救命啊！

此时此刻只有害怕的感觉..

因为我好像听到有人哭泣的声音.

怕~~~~~>,<

我只想现在我个人陪陪我！！！

*GENTING n MALAM*.♥tired lerrrr*a nice FRIDAY((=

2:19pm,on the way go genting((=

dad fetch me n Ms.Tirris,me n Ms.Tirris wanna enj0y 0ur siao 1 day genting trip.

coz both of us gt alot things to fan.[avtually v no need fan geh.haha.juz sendiri think too muchiie oni.=.=]

3pm lik tat v arrived.dad sure went to CASINO lurr.

me n Ms.Tirris walk to 1st world.thn we plan ad geh wan go outdoor play.

thn we straight go buy the wrisband.
go in jor.the 1st thing go walk around sin.

gt many fishssss.n a leng lui sit at thr.hahaXDXD

1st game v play is the boat,lolz.

v 2 [踩到脚软].=.=

after play the boat we go in view the coco lands.

damn fairly tale feel.

after tat,go to play the flying chairs,damnnn cold,n syok whn at the top.

feel dunwan cum down ad.lolz.haha

i write my name at the fake sand beach.haha.

thn go sit the minis ferris wheel.

snap it whn i inside thn ferris wheel.

wat is this?=.=

Ms.Bei N Ms.Tirris

4 sumting lik tat rainning tim wor.

thn Ms.Tirris say got abit hungry wanna eat mcD,thn v go having 0ur....lunch.

lolz.i capture jor many pic.haha.damn zilian ar.

after finish lunch we go in theme park again.

many gme was stop service ad larrrrrr.isshhh..

thn we no place cn go juz go walk around n i keep snap photo

haha.

in side the london buss.((=

coz v 2 too bored jor.

v used tat public phone to call sum1 n kacau her.

2 times,wakaka.she cant identified our voice.lolz.

keep ask us [who r u?who r u?]

haha.[YOU,dun angry larrr.we 2 terlalu 5 liao ad.]haha.

keep snap photo aroung theme park.[wakaka.]
we siao eh.\

7 sumting daddy was call me ask us walk to carpark thr

wait him.thn Ms.Tirris ki siao again.

she saw dou many fog.thn she ask me capture her.

ma geh....lik ghost gam.yerrrr.

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8:3opm.arrive KL.

daddy fetch us to kok doh.we go malam summore.

lolz.

hang out a whole day again.=.=

whn arrived malam i sudd miss [sai mai lou.]

thn Ms.Tirris accp me go n eat.haha

curi-curi snap tat uncle whn he was making sai mai lou.

Ms.Tirris geh mango sai mai lou,Ms.Bei geh honeydew sai mai lou.

i reli siao eh.like tat oso can snap.XDXD

walk around 10pm Ms.Tirris's mother juz reach malam,

thn accp mami walk a while juz bak hum.

mami say us reli geng ar.can walk a whole day dint feel tired oso geh.

haha.coz we is robot.wakaka.

ya lorrr.2day daddy geh frd take money 4 him.

i tolong him receive geh.walaooo ehh..

gt many money lurrr.>,<[$.$]

yeeee~~~feel tired nw lurr~n damnn MISS my LOVER.haha>,<

hmm.go ooi ooi nw lurr.tata.

LOVER,meet u in my dream~makz>,<